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Saturday, April 10, 2010

pissed and relieved!

its not shitting!

Listening to: 蔡健雅 - 若你碰到他

Today I'm seriously got fucked by a "gan chiong" Japanese guy.
the point is... IT'S NOT EVEN MY FAULT!! I HAVE NO WRONG DOING AT ALL!

There is times i believe whenever there is an argument.. Both parties have fault.. But this time i have my stand.. And justice was not served to me just because I'm probably considered "cheap labour general worker/helper"...

Scenario
* Went to fitting at The Cathay, B1, Jitterbug
* Did a 50 cent donation to a disable charity thing...

* Reached although im late but there is nothing else i could have done.. So Eunice, Eveline and me sat down and rot awhile until a mum came over and requested we fit her daughters like immediately cause they have something on and was told to fit at 12pm...

* Being unknown what is going on we are doing the best we can to try clear every kid we could..
* Jamie asked me being camera just before i went out cause i know her camera is being service...

* Suay suay my camera died on me after a few snaps..
* Bo bian use handphone shoot la..

* 1pm, Jamie not here yet.. Dancers is here for Fitting... 2 dancers need to rush off so hurrying us to fit again... "GREAT!"
* Called Jamie cause we dunno who wear wad...
* While Eveline and Eunice is trying to fit the dancers, came a new kid pop out.. So i want to just take the new kid photo..
* Jamie called...

* Havent really get what Jamie is trying to tell me, Hideki came over and tell me take photo of the dancers when Eveline shouted for my name to take photo...
* Yes i know but Jamie is on the phone trying to tell me something...
* Hideki push me tell me to go off.. TWICE!

* I told him i am on the phone with JAMIE!

* Hideki replied: "Why? what? Why you talking on the phone with Jamie? Go take photos.."
* I havent got chance to say what Jamie was trying to tell me and he just keep pushing me and said... "Why are you on the phone with Jamie? Why are you just standing here? Why you NOT doing your job? You go GO! Go off! Go home! Go Home! I DONT WANNA SEE YOU!"
and walked off

NOTE: All these happen infront of all the dancers and my colleagues/working friends!

* I was stunned? and like wad happen?
* I immediately tell Jamie wad happen on the phone and what she told me?

* Jamie: "Err.. I think you go outside first ar... walk out first k.."
* Being so pissed before i took my bag and walked off, Daniel told me to cool down...
(at least he care..)

* I walked out, call my fellow working friends, Eunice and Eveline.. Nv pick up phone nor trying to find me or anything... Fine.. maybe they dont wanna cause themselves problem i dont blame them...

* I walked out off the mall and sat outside starbucks... In the verge of crying feeling so unfair and ill-treated yet no one say anything nor care...
* Tried calling dear but somehow he not answering... NVM

* Jamie called and asked me if i could go get a camera for her...
At this circumstances, i could have not buy for her because she wanna buy just because hideki wants the camera... but its because i dun want her to get scolded further more by him because she is already late so i tried to help her...

* Before i went to buy the camera, I got on the phone with Mr Leong, I told him what happened and i could not hold it any longer... I CRIED! Although hiding in a corner but people still manage to see me, and people might be thinking someone broke up with me and i am crying over at a corner... LOL.. I would think that way if i am one of them...

* Mr Leong said he wanna come fetch me home...
* so i went to buy the camera and the salesman is taking forever to go to the cashier i also dunno why...

* went back to Jitterbug, saw hideki talking to other people... i dun care him and walked pass him like he is nobody... went in give them the camera.. They looked abit shock to see me?
Eveline and Eunice and Nur is doing packing because the Fitting is like over?
They kept quiet...
Whereas Daniel and Misha know what happen and ask me to cool down and sit down... They are caring for me! but not my fellow working friends that i have been seeing them for almost everyday!!!

* They asked me what happen, and i said... He pushed me and ask me to go home when im on the phone with Jamie...
* Jamie cut in and said... "No la... actually he thought u were talking with someone else... Not me.. Thats why he was wondering why u talking on the phone with someone else..."

* HELLO??? He himself said out "WHY ARE YOU ON THE PHONE WITH JAMIE!??!"

* Not helping me here... I dont get it... Why is it like my fault when i didnt do anything wrong and i was trying to make everything right???
No one help me but just kept quiet! WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH THESE WORLD!!!

* I left without saying much liao... Got much more thoughts when i am alone and thinking...

* Talked with dear on the car and what he said make me think more deeply...

Now my conclusion...

Jamie: I know ur character, you are like that i dun blame you but the least u can do is be firm and u know i have helped you so so much... I dont blame you and still you are my friend...
Nuff said...

Eveline: We have been working so SO long together... It felt so long cause we have been seeing each other for almost EVERYDAY! I shared your burden, and you shared mine.. True to be told, I am bit angry with you today... because i treat you as my friend, a GOOD friend.. we even thought of opening a blogshop together but although im blogging here first but i think the idea in me is gone now...

When i am being fucked by that fucker, you didnt say anything its ok... you didnt pick up my calls nor call back to see where m i or if im ok... never mind... cause i am not that selfish that would want you to lose a job because of me.... but there is just no care nor concern from you... that really upset me... i would thought you would probably be thinking that you dont wanna say anything cause you scared would hurt me or cause im pissed u want me to cool down... but even till just now we had an sms conversation i felt totally hurt...

I reached home and asked my brother if he wanted to replace me to work for the SMRT show since i dont wanna work for hideki... He havent give me an answer yet but i just acknowledge to you..

Eveline: "If they don't want to work, don't force them. I'll ask my bro."
(the only time i force them to work is that 313 Somerset show.. n they dont really blame me for it!)

ME: "I nv force them that they have to work, If they dont want too i won't, Cause its not worth too, Since i'm not doing I'm asking if my bro wants to replace me, If he don't want den u get ur bro lo"

Eveline: "Not say force la. Of cause, you ask your bros first. I'm trying to tell you that there's always my bro if they can't work"
(read the first dialogue?)

ME: "If I cannot get them to work I'll let you know de ma"

Eveline: "Yup. dont get angry. Go have choc ice cream or something. cool yourself down...."

ME: "I already ate that, Im not angry, Pissed with hideki yes but now its like my slow so i just asked my bro n he haven't give me an answer, That's all"

Eveline: "No probs, take your time...."

I'm sorry if you read and feel offended... I'm sober and I know what i'm doing.. I nv ever want to take your position.. whoever ask me for dressers i'll ask them to look for you.. else i would ask u to get dressers.. I could get it myself u jolly-well know it but i respect u... U treat me good i know I give back to you too.. I dont care if pple thinks i am over spoken at times... but i am like this... all knows me knows how i talk and how i work... I work diligently... people respects and know me because of how i do things... but i nv thought of taking ur place... i respect of what u are doing and nv want to take what away from you...
somehow i actually have feelings that you feel im a threat to you... and sometimes i do feel u want me out of the fashion industry... no worries cause i know i am not going the same route with you, i know what i want...

But do note: I had your back when the Marie incident happened... I backup for you... I talk for you and not afraid that Marie might not even want me to work for her in future and she pays me ok u know not the typical dresser pay... thats all i can say...

I still love u as a friend... just cannot really have 100% trust... i am really hurt...

Listening to: 弦子 - 第三者的第三者

pineapple signing off....

6:13 PM