Wednesday, June 04, 2008
m too stress
i'm too stress...
i'm giving myself a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of stress...
i'm sorry eelin last week we didnt have lessons... and this week might be hard too... ARGH !
i have too many things on my mind... my piano... my vocal... my wisdom tooth... my life after september... my menses... thinking too much...
my wisdom tooth... im afraid of the pain i cannot take it... but i think i will still go for it as i dun want to have future pain when it gets decay and so on...
my piano... no time to practise.. and its getting harder... devil side of me is a quitter... but i aint gonna do that... im full of determination.. i must chiong !!!
my vocal... no musical sense nowadays... no tune... i need more inspiration !
my life after september... my contract with NYP ends... not going to uni... its difficult too... i might let go about getting a degree and head to my interest...planning how my future is going to lead...
my menses... it gone all messed up... for 2 weeks !!! i have been tired, bad-temper... very irritatable... i feel like as if im a drug addict... got so tired so easy... need of sleep and food...
all these leads to showing temper to dear... quarrel with him... and in the verge of separating... i know i did wrong... i know i should kept it down... but i can't... and i have not seen him although he is having his off days... i got frustrated easily... and i go moodless and tired comes in.. dunno whats wrong with me...
but im getting back to normal... trying not to think so much... and i am trying to save this relationship !
i think i need a break... that break will come when wisdom tooth is off... help me from the pain !!!
i mean the after extraction pain... im not having pain now... duh... just that the dentist tell me to remove it... lol...
words out to peeps
Layyin: jia you o... one side of your shoulder and mine is booked ! * heiheihei...
Quan: quan quan quan.... if people dun wanna friend you... BNIs will always be there for you and friends forever is in our league !!!
deAr: i'm sorry that ive made you angry... so you should make me happy !! hahahaha !!! love you !!
5:07 PM
