oh man... is my room dirty or is it messy ?
I just killed a some fly which always appears in my bathroom...
and i happen to see it fly pass me again...
what a bunch of family...
so like to visit me
anyways... i also saw a baby COCKROACH !!
yup... thats right !
i wanted to kill it..
but it ran away when i turn to take tissue..
worst !!
it ran under my bed !!!
damn f*** !!!!!!!!!
if you know me well my friends.. you will know my reaction and speech when i see one..
and well well well... den i was thinking...
m i that dirty ?
every lil family thing seems to come to me...
that include mosquito.. (maybe the pimple i got is caused by it)
i wonder...
maybe is it because of my one pack chocolate i'm trying to hide from my family ?
but it is in a packet !!
i haven't open it !!
then i thought of my dog...
she eats her biscuit in my room
on my bed..
and i will swept the crumbs off my bed to the floor !
!!! OOppSSss !!!
but does it also mean my maid is not working ?
back to that eekiii thing..
how i wish for it to come out so i don't have to worry that i can sleep in peace
well well well
think i didn't spot you because you're black ?
sorry dude..
i saw you !!
i quickly grab the tissue and SMACK !
I GOT YOU !
at last..
i can sleep in peace..
if its a big one..
i don't SMACK..
i RUN !!
and sleep in my brothers room..
ok...
and another story..
these few days the weather is warm..
warm that i can sweat just sitting/rotting on sofa watching television..
but thats not the point..
my point is..!!!
not about the warm weather...
but yesterday.. aka wednesday (i haven't sleep yet if you are reading this on friday...)
i went for my vocal course as usual..
dont ask me anything like how is it.. did i improve..
can tell you i sucks at it.. now i realise i'm so so bad at this..
and i have to like sing standing..
its ok.. its always been like dat..
but as my teacher scold me and forcing me and pushing me..
i felt stress..
but i don't know if there is anything to do with it...
hopefully not..
i have a sudden giddyness and cold rush through my body..
i felt i was going to faint.. felt so weak..
and then... it gets stronger and stronger...
and my teacher there i forget he was scolding me or saying something else already..
cause i apparently is going to faint soon or later..
so i try to hold myself... see if i'm really going to faint..
the feeling is so so there !
i lean myself to the table and try to hold on..
den i felt i can't...
i don't wanna faint in class !!
in front of everyone ?
not my style..
so i spoke louder.. and said i cannot already... i feel like fainting...
i quickly rush to the sofa..
but the giddy and everything is still there...
i'm practically sweating cold...
and i feel my ears blocked !
DAMN LA !!
den my teacher say my lips and face changed so pale..
so i rest...
arghhh... i felt this whole experience is like a uncool thing..
he is trying to push me and i like dat..
what the hell is going on with me !!!
damn it...!!
and i felt so so SORRY that i didn't do a good job back there.... shit me !!!
my sister's friend...
is setting up a site..
and asked me to help them with it...
but i didn't want to because i know i cannot commit..
and indeed... i didn't...
im still slacking...
i try to push myself...
but...
i don't wanna do programming now !!
and my computer is lagging !!!
all my electronics are in shitty status.. even my phone !!
now its 4.07am... i think i should sleep soon...
ROCK A BYE baby...
3:37 AM